I know, I know.

For most who know me, thatā€™s what I love to do. I love how all of my pieces turn out, both good and bad. Itā€™s the one sure thing that keeps me sane most of the time, a great distraction from the outside world and all of my issues. (Which is not a lot, but you get the point)

About 4 years ago, I made the decision to make crocheting into a businessā€¦ letā€™s call it a side hustle. It was a big step for me because it meant putting myself out there, which isnā€™t always easy since Iā€™m a quiet person by nature.

While it was fun for a moment, I began to notice some of the woes of developing a small side hustle, especially in a predominantly black community.

  • Many looove to give suggestions, but never to the point where theyā€™ll support you in terms of buying something. They simply want to give a suggestion, which is not a bad thing, but it does give me the wrong signal sometimes. I canā€™t tell you how many times people told me to try selling on Etsy or tag me in posts on Facebook. I would take it as ā€œOh they want to buy something,ā€ but really itā€™s just a suggestion(s).
  • Most people want you to make ā€œthisā€ or ā€œthatā€ for themā€¦ but they really donā€™t want to buy it. Honestly, it got to a point where I stopped putting pics on Facebook. It starts with me posting a pic of my creations on facebook, then someone will comment saying something like, ā€œMake me this!ā€ or ā€œCan you make me that????ā€ Me being someone who will take what people say to heart sometimes, I assumed that they are interested in my services. So I respond with ā€œSureā€ or ā€œYes, Iā€™ll do it. It will cost ___.ā€ They are normally okay with it and I began working on it. Then once I make it, Iā€™d notify themā€¦ I wonā€™t hear from them for months or never at all.
  • People will cancel an order after you have made the product, or in the midst of making the product. Nothing too wrong with it, but it does bother me after I have gotten finished with making it.

FYI ā€“ For those who are well-established business owners or side hustlers, you probably read a few red flags at this point. I wanna let you know that I now know the error of my ways and I donā€™t need any comments about it. Thanks!
~Management.

Anyway.

My trust in people began to falter after my last two orders last year. Up to that point I didnā€™t trust anyone when they said theyā€™ll pay me, including the people who I knew were my best supporters and customers. I doubted everyone when they asked me to make them something. I would always think Girl, they really donā€™t wanna pay for it. They want it for free. Whatā€™s the point of making it? (I have a whole box of products to prove it.)

Again I say that crocheting was only a side hustle, but I wanted to take it seriously. Plus Iā€™m a perfectionist, so I work hard on it!

Now I wonā€™t pin this solely on people. I was also most to blame. I didnā€™t have any idea what it was like to run a side business, even if it was my side hustle that I did occasionally. I will admit that I allowed this to happen. Moreover, I had questions and didnā€™t know who to turn to other than an author of some book from Amazon, which I never bought and read.

To top it all off, 2017 was not a good year for me mentally and emotionally; yet still I was trying to keep a brave face the entire time and stay hopefulā€¦ even though I wanted to cry, which I did sometimes. But did I pick up my crochet hook? Nope, not onceā€¦ for myself at least. (I did to teach some awesome people how to crochet and a few other times to make gifts.) What was once a joy to do now became the one sure thing that I wanted to take a break from.

Life and trust issues in people affected my side hustle. I wasnā€™t mentally nor emotionally there and I didnā€™t wanna crochet. Now that didnā€™t mean quitting crocheting altogether, but I really didnā€™t feel like crocheting. This led to a few unstarted, backed-up requests from a couple of my greatest supporters, which I think about a lot. (If youā€™re reading this, then Iā€™m very sorry. I shouldā€™ve said something.)

As I look back on last year, I think Iā€™m in a better headspace. Life happens! After following a few people on Facebook with their thriving new ventures, I think Iā€™m ready to try again! Iā€™m not going to put myself out there again just yet in terms of business, but Iā€™m currently doing my research. I did start with making business cards. (Iā€™m not sure if that was a good first start, but at least itā€™s a start!)

Iā€™m not sure if anyone was wondering this, but now you know why I stopped crocheting for a while. Iā€™m starting to crochet again šŸ˜ŠšŸ‘šŸ¾ Looking at YouTube videos and pictures when I click on a hashtag motivates me. Iā€™ll be sure to post what I make later.

~Live Laugh Love~