It’s Sunday everyone and we have 5 DAYS LEFT in the month of June. Where on Earth did the time go??? Additionally, I am super proud of myself for being consistent and doing the blog challenge until the end. Anywho, enough of that… today’s blog post is about regret. I will warn you now that this will be a transparent moment… and a little personal for me.
My biggest regret… That’s a hard one. Whenever I think of something that I regret, I always think of what if my current outcome didn’t turn out the way it did and would I be okay with it.
For example, I have college loans, while at the same time I also had a tuition scholarship that covered my undergrad. Therefore, my loans are based on grad school and living on campus for the first 5 years (fresh out of high school). If I stayed on campus my first year (because my mom wanted me to) and moved back home, I think it would’ve cut the loan amount by a lot. This could be something that I could regret because I didn’t want to take out a loan in the first place. I remember crying because I felt like I didn’t have the money to pay out of pocket, which I didn’t. However, I don’t regret it at all because it made going to class a lot more convenient by walking. I didn’t make a lot of money being a tutor, so it helped pay for food and books. I wouldn’t have met a lot of friends and hung out with them if I did stay at home. Plus, I don’t think I would have learned a lot about being independent if I stayed home.
Here’s another example: I also thought about the fact that I never dated anyone while in college. My last “relationship” was in high school, which does not count. My last date was last year and it didn’t go anywhere after that one day. My family and close friends were shocked because they don’t ever hear about it… but to my defense I didn’t know how to give them a thesis on the fact that the date went okay. This may be a shock to a lot of people, including my family, but it’s the truth. Now don’t get me wrong, I was not Mother Teresa. I actually had a lot of fun in college! I went to parties and stayed out late, but none of it involved relationships, sex, drugs, and [a lot of] alcohol. I do regret not dating in college a little bit… because I haven’t been out on a lot of dates to experience what I want versus only knowing. However, at the same time, my focus was on school and I was taught that “boys” will come later. Moreover, I don’t think that I would still be a virgin if I dated in college.
So… honestly… I don’t have anything that I truly regret. I think of anything that comes my way as learning experiences and what not to do the next time.
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